Sunday, December 30, 2007

New Year Post.........

This will be my last post of this year and another year had come and gone in a blink.And the same old speculations about resolutions has started all over again.Well the fact is I have stopped taking new year resolutions from my 7th grade,after all most of this resolutions never seem to last for more than week [atleast for me].Whats more important is that we make sure that the next year is always better than the previous ones and I can say on a high note that the way my life has taken shape,every year always had a upbeat curve and ofcourse with some variations in slope.
And well this year has been a mixed one for me with lots of pats and kicks.The most highlighting part was my first job , o boy what a feeling it was ,it was the most hyped event of the year and getting it in my very first interview was certainly lot special for me.And whats more I started this blog page in feb of this year with some degree of initial reluctance at first, but when one my post was featured in top 100 blogs of astrological news source,it was really mesmerizing to see the RSS feed of my post there.And if I say that I felt good it would certainly be the most severe kind of understatement I have ever made in my life.[click here to see the listing..]
The jolt of year the came when my sixth sem results were out,an arrear in antenna , and whats more it happened a day before my birthday making it one of the most gloomiest one I have ever celebrated.Lots of comforting words from all around, desperately trying to lift my spirit up and of course without them, days would have been certainly nothing short of hell.Finally,I did clear it on revaluation,please for heaven sake don`t ask me how I felt,it felt as though I am surfacing the ocean after spending six weeks in the pulverizing pressure of the "Marina Trench".
As far as the competitions are concerned I cashed up Rs.2500 in all those symposiums stuff,won some four quizzes,my first block and tackle and competitions I never thought I could win even in my dreams.[I am talking about that kitchen chronicles,only heavens know what we played there, may be thats what we call heavenly music:)].
My project team and My guide did add some garnishing touch to the year,it feels good to have such a optimal team,and ofcourse it was nothing short of a out of the blue fortune.But whether it be a pat or kick the best part is all this forces have just pushed me to my better side ,so honestly speaking I really don`t have any regrets at all about the year.
As I predicted this year was indeed a very interesting one with lots of spice and my prophecy tells me the next one is going to be still more interesting .The outcome of my project ,thats going to be the first arrow out of my bow next year ,the fare well,the parting and getting drenched with all those heavy emotions is all set here.I wonder how I am going to handle all those things and but the fact is I surprise myself lots of times , so those things are on the pipeline.I need some tinkering work with my social skills and one of my best pals has promised to help me out on this aspect.And of course definitely I want to find time to write more post on my blog page.
Personally and professionally it going to be a very important year for me,reinforcing my place in the society ,getting my first feel of professional life ,all this thing does sound a little chilling,but in any way things has to be taken head on,there is no bypass for all this.But certainly i don`t want to make you conscious about your level of anxiety disorder by blabbering my anxieties.
So my big heartful thanks to all readers of my blog page for making it a successful one .Guys your comments really amplified my excitement several folds.So have great year ahead, hope all your wishes and dreams come true ,never let your frustration take over you,patience and perseverance can take you to great distance.[ Quite Obviously ,it applies to me as well:)]

"Wish You A Very Happy And Eventful New Year".

Wishing you the very best in life this New year,

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Haunted By Human Hollowness......

I was taking a walk across the shop glancing at their bookshelves and most cannily I stumbled upon something and fell over and the entire volume of books in the shelf fell over me. An old lady in her early fifties came to my rescue, She helped me stand on my feet and I thanked her.She introduced herself to me as a fortune teller and asked me this flabbergasting question.."Is this your first time as Human..?".

This was a clipping of a unknown movie I was watching the other day as I was irritatingly browsing through some of the TV channels.

This is exactly what I feel some times...."Is this my first time as human"?..Its not that I stumble in a bookstore often[and of course I have stumbled in some most awkward situations],its about the entire perspective of life.Every day looks so new,every time I look at a fellow human I see in him the complex characteristic of his species unique to its nature.I try so hard to fall in line with him and kind of try to adapt to his nature not because of fear of rejection but to identify my self as one among them, after all even I am called as "Human".
And whats more haunting than the uncertainty of human life,you have no say over the past and no control over the future and you live the present repenting about the past and hoping for the future.The breed of humans had grown so complex there is nothing called to be instinctively human , except for eating or sleeping.Everything thing is so tailored and every behavior is so unpredictable.
There is one section of people ever partying and enjoying every aspect of life to the extent that they abuse themselves and there is this section of society weeping and hoping tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

What made me to be born in this circumstance where I am given education,food,love,shelter and all so called luxuries of life and what made him to be born their, roaming the streets with tattered clothes, no one to care and not aware of the worth of his own human life.If he were to be put in my shoes,who knows this person who does`t even care about himself might have done far better in life then me.But whats the point what made him to be in that dimension of life..Fate or Karma..? . Should I consider myself that I am blessed to be here this way or should I boast my fortune that thankfully I was`t there.

With rains pouring down in from the pitch dark sky, with freezing cold winter ,you have a cozy bed under a roof to sleep , while a person of your own age with no mistake of his,desperate to find a fragment of shade to escape the harsh nature with his heavy sleep laden eyelids.If you are a believer of reincarnation whats the guarantee that you will retain your current comfort of life or go better.Can feel you the haunt with me,can you image your self as one among the destitute,it would`t have have taken much for you to be in their place.

Every time when I see people so opaque to the pain,suffering and hollowness ,I wonder why don`t they realize this phobic words could be part of their lives too,its not a threat but its the ground reality,if it can happen to them,it may well happen to you as well,may be today ,tomorrow or a century later.
Its the same feeling that haunts me and make me say,"Never take anything in life for granted".

Living in this haunted place with you,

Saturday, December 1, 2007

Please Draw A Line...........

It feels nice to come out of a hibernation,but you should note that while I was hibernating from my blog page I was fighting a fierce battle with my exams and the battle is not yet over and there is a week`s gap for the next one so I thought of sneaking in a post here.

Last month when Sunitha Williams visited India she was given a heroic reception by our double standard politicians and the Gujarat government even went to the extent of giving her a state honor, to a person who has almost nothing to do with a country except her so called "Ethnicity". We Indians take too much of pride in achievements of our people and that nature of ours is what makes us to be called as one the most patriotic countries in the world , but thats fine as long as the people whome we take pride are our own citizens ,who share your love for the country and take pride in being part of it.But here in this case taking pride in Sunita`s achievements as person of Indian origin is absolute insanity.
We need to realize that she a citizen of an another country and all her achievements and success belongs to them.Here I want to bring another quote by Mr.Aditya Mittal,son of industrialist Lakshmi Mittal says that his company Arcelor is not an Indian company and his company is global,its not even listed in Sensex and he holds a Indian passport but it makes no difference ,distancing himself from his country which has feed them and what we do ,include the Mittals in our list of billionaires.
The Tamil rebels fighting in sri lanka though on the basis of ethnicity,are as patriotic as any other lankan in the island,remember the cease fire which the Tamil rebels issued during the 96 world cup when the sri lankans were playing the Australians in the final.The war in sri lanka is their own internal affair and every rebel feels more lankan on par as he feels a Tamilian.And what our honorable politicians in the state do, find some political assets by supporting and honoring people who have assassinated our prime minister.
Recently in the news was Pakistan recruiting a Sikh soldier in its battalion, a first .Now let me give you a hypothetical situation, if this soldier gets into higher ranks of the army and be responsible for capture of Kashmir,will you still appreciate his gallantry because the man responsible for it is ethnically Indian.
We as Indians so thirsty with global recognition that we tend to take pride in anything thats comes across our way,may be its because of centuaries of suppression caused by colonialism at different period of time.Its so pathetic that we talk so much about globalism and IT revolution ,but we still blind folded on the basic difference between ethnicity and citizenship,we certainly need to draw a line some where.
Have a look at multi ethnic countries like Australia and the United States there are no basic ethnicity for people of this countries,their people have roots in across Europe,Africa and Asia,in that sense the only thing that unites them is their citizenship.
But this kind of scenario is completely uncanny to us,we need a way to handle this kind of people and find a slot for them.We need to look at this people as global citizens or citizens of there respective country. we need to mature our thoughts to digest the fact that they no more belong here.
Which team are you going to support if you are an formula one fan,there you will find a Spanish driver driving for a German team managed by British engineers.Which is your favorite European club football UEFA team,people playing for Real Madrid may not even know to speak be Spanish. Why go to Europe ,lets talk about our own backyard [as I always do]which team are you going to support in the current ICL or IPL team.

You need to open your mind up ,its great to appreciate good individual performances and applaud their effort ,but how long we Indians are going to do that only on the basis of ethnicity.If we still are going to continue our stance on this, I am sure all this IPL and ICL stuff is going to be an utter failure in this country obsessed with ethnicity.May be I am going a little chauvinistic towards sports but the same rules apply in every walk of life and sports gives you one good example to showcase the situation.

With crossed fingers,